[ After the bonfire, the naked show of honesty between them, it feels a little strange to hold back — but decades of doing so still make him hesitate. ]
[ There's an prolonged radio silence as Sasuke tries to think of how best to describe it. There's a certain degree of humiliation that comes in just the admittance, particularly in the face of a man who has such ironclad control over himself and his emotions from Sasuke's perspective. Particularly this man, who he can't help craving approval from. ]
It feels like I have less reason not to act impulsively.
Like I can't think of a reason to hold back from something I want to say or do.
[That is… problematic. In his brother's position, Itachi isn't sure how he would cope. Control over impulse and inhibition is necessary for so much of who they are as people -- as shinobi.]
It is good to be aware of how you've been affected, at least. Very likely the gem is responsible for this change. If it can alter our bodies, there is no reason not to suspect it can also alter our personalities. I have witnessed as much from some transformations in others.
[ He knows it's the gem, and he knows it must be some kind of instinct — but fear, too, is an instinct, and one Sasuke has had to beat down and overcome over his life as a shinobi. Why shouldn't this be the same? The lack of control is unnerving, and the worst of it... ]
[ It's strange, that one word could feel like a huge shift. The conversation has a sense of normalcy that's almost disorienting, and Sasuke doesn't reply, but only because he's at a loss to how to continue. ]
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That is all I can ask.
... How are you coping, so far?
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You'll have to be more specific.
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The Sapphire is difficult to contend with.
Sakura is
[ ... ]
unexpected.
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[Personally, he hasn't noticed too much of a negative side effect from his Amethyst, but he understands that not all of the gems are the same.
The second part earns another question:]
... Have you spoken with her?
[Specifically about the future, but he doesn't say as much.]
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It has an influence on me I cannot control, outside the transformation and the magic. You haven't experienced something like that?
I have. We met at the bonfire.
[ It goes unsaid that anything he might have been trying to hide didn't remain very hidden, given what transpired between he and Itachi. ]
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[Though now he's beginning to wonder, as he's noticed similar behavior in others by now. Has he been less affected? Is there some reason for it?
Setting aside the topic of Sakura temporarily to focus on this first, concerning issue...]
Can you describe to me how it feels?
narrowly dodged a very different conversation with that edit,,,
It feels like I have less reason not to act impulsively.
Like I can't think of a reason to hold back from something I want to say or do.
i dont even remember what i edited oops
[That is… problematic. In his brother's position, Itachi isn't sure how he would cope. Control over impulse and inhibition is necessary for so much of who they are as people -- as shinobi.]
It is good to be aware of how you've been affected, at least. Very likely the gem is responsible for this change. If it can alter our bodies, there is no reason not to suspect it can also alter our personalities. I have witnessed as much from some transformations in others.
You should not blame yourself for it.
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[ He knows it's the gem, and he knows it must be some kind of instinct — but fear, too, is an instinct, and one Sasuke has had to beat down and overcome over his life as a shinobi. Why shouldn't this be the same? The lack of control is unnerving, and the worst of it... ]
I don't always notice it happening.
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[He realizes he's assuming, because it would make himself uncomfortable, but had not explicitly asked.]
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I think you know the answer to that.
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