i dunno i was like fuckin 5 i felt a lot of things confused, scared, pissed betrayed abandoned burdened its kinda this all-encompassing thing that led to a buncha other things cuz he went away n it was just me n my ma n all the damages we wound up in debt real bad i always worked a buncha part time jobs but the money wasnt as good as, ya know, runnin the streets w/ other guys who had shit lives too people i had somethin in common w/ for a fucking change, u kno ? cue the inevitable spiral, i guess bein desperate for money made me so easy to use n it was fucking awful but still better than the alternative but that didnt mean i wasnt angry about it
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i dunno i was like fuckin 5 i felt a lot of things
confused, scared, pissed
betrayed
abandoned
burdened
its kinda this all-encompassing thing that led to a buncha other things
cuz he went away n it was just me n my ma n all the damages we wound up in debt real bad
i always worked a buncha part time jobs but the money wasnt as good as, ya know, runnin the streets w/ other guys who had shit lives too
people i had somethin in common w/ for a fucking change, u kno ?
cue the inevitable spiral, i guess
bein desperate for money made me so easy to use n it was fucking awful but still better than the alternative
but that didnt mean i wasnt angry about it
about everything