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un: "uchiha, itachi" hungryeyes

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[anbu]

Yeast and rations? I suppose that makes sense given the context of your world.

Have you spoken with someone named Mo Guanshan? He would likely be able to help.

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NOT YET, BUT I'LL LOOK FOR HIM. IS THAT HIS NAME ON THESE THINGS?

[anbu]

... No.

[ugh]

His user's name on the network is fuckyou.

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[ ........... ]

SOUNDS LIKE A CHARMER
THANKS
THERE’S ONE MORE THING I WANTED TO ASK YOU

[anbu]

He means well. Usually.

What is it?

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I STILL FEEL LIKE YOU KNOW MORE ABOUT ME THAN I DO YOU, BUT I NEVER GOT THAT SYNCHRONY OUT OF MY HEAD WHEN IT HAPPENED.

YOU KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE.

[anbu]

That's understandable. I have interacted with another version of you.

Synchrony is sometimes intense. Can you be more specific?

[He may have a guess, but he wants to coax it out of Eren first.]

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BEING IRREDEEMABLE.

“MONSTER” DOESN’T EVEN COME CLOSE.

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[...]

No. I suppose it doesn't.

There are some actions which cannot be forgiven.

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I’D NEVER WANT FORGIVENESS FOR IT EITHER.
IT HASN’T HAPPENED FOR ME YET, BUT I KNOW IT WILL.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN FATE?

[anbu]

[His reply takes some time, considering the weight of the question against his own lived experiences. Against what is possible, how decisions are made, how futures are defined...]

No. Not necessarily. At the same time, it is impossible to truly know.

But you must, if you are certain it will happen.

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I DON'T WANT TO BELIEVE IN IT. I'VE TRIED NOT TO FOR A WHILE.
BUT EVERYTHING ALWAYS PANS OUT IN A WAY THAT WORKS TOWARDS IT EVEN IF I TRY TO DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT.

I THINK THE ONLY THING I DIDN'T FORESEE WAS NOCTIUM SOMEHOW.

1/2

[anbu]

I understand that feeling. In some cases, there will be situations you cannot avoid, no matter what you try to do in an attempt to change your own reality. You have to face what is to come and react in the way you believe is right.

[Even saying this much, his own words feel hollow. It's a sensation of uncertainty he is not accustomed to.]

These dimensions are beyond many of our expectations. Even if we were aware, I don't know if it would be possible to prepare for them.

[anbu]

... Do you feel as though this place has changed who you are?

Or that it could?

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[ asking all the tough questions he's only ever asked himself alone. ]

YEAH.
TO THE POINT THAT I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK SOMETIMES.
BUT WHAT'S THE POINT IF WE CAN'T CONTROL THAT?

[anbu]

I know.

It may be likely that, in the event you do return, you won't remember this place or how it has changed you. You shouldn't worry.

[Is that reassuring? Maybe not. But without more information, they can't agonize too much.]

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IT’S FUNNY HOW A MAYBE STILL MAKES YOU WANT TO KEEP GOING ANYWAY.

HAS THIS HAPPENED TO YOU YET? FORGETTING WHERE YOU’VE BEEN, WHO YOU ARE?

[anbu]

... No.

I don't think I could ever forget something like that, but perhaps it becomes easier to set aside. To wait.

I may not be the best individual to speak with on this subject.

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[ easier to wait . . . ]

I'VE NEVER TALKED ABOUT IT WITH ANYONE, SO I WOULDN'T KNOW.

THANKS, EITHER WAY. I'LL THINK ABOUT IT.

[anbu]

You don't have to thank me.

[he gets u]