[That's the problem, here — instinct instead of reason — but they've had the discussion before about Guanshan's impulsive tendencies. He's not going to let himself get reeled into something else.
[ a chat window that sits empty for a few days, unused but not forgotten. he promised Itachi a clear head, and for half of the week, Marilla's party scene has its claws in him; he needs time to make mistakes and then breathe in the aftermath, reset some kind of equilibrium that, however fleeting on a pendulum's swing, craves the drinks and the drugs and the whole dissociative bender. ]
[ a full day of recovery and he texts in the evening, incidentally on the cusp of the sun going down. ]
[He'd thought Guanshan might have forgotten, or at least abandoned the cause, so he is somewhat surprised to see the message flash across his screen.]
Have you thought about the fact that I could hurt you, and possibly kill you? That is what these eyes are for. Are you going to explain why you would still trust me not to?
[He could certainly make Guanshan regret it. A part of him wants to, like teaching a child a necessary lesson — don't put your hand on a hot stovetop — but the thought is more easily corralled when he realizes it isn't personal to Guanshan himself. Rather, he's reacting to the gullible recklessness as one might want to smooth out a folded page. A need to correct, to fix. As two very different men once taught him.]
[ sneakers carry him across every terrain between his apartment and that beach, eating up cement and asphalt and shifty, soft sands in his wide gait. moonlight has turned the beach silver and black and pretty, the only warmth found radiating out from the fire like its own little sun, Itachi a dark heavenly body hovering in its orbit. he'd be difficult to spot in pallor, but his isolation and perfect posture announce him as an outsider on a backdrop of biodegradable alcohol containers strewn across the shore like popped confetti. funny, if Guanshan's sense of humor was anything less than mischievous bordering on sadistic. ]
[ even in the night, Guanshan's colors stay saturated — blustery sunburn darkening his freckles, red hair, a windbreaking jacket with reflective cuts, modernistic and sharp on orange, skull-motif'd. sharp-shinned beneath a familiar (clean, now) pair of loose black shorts. red cheeks make the mottled purpling under his eyes that much sharper. to little sleep, too many punches? has he rotted inside so far that his blood's gone mauve? ]
[ selfish is as selfish does, and Guanshan goes to greet him with a kiss — sharp-toothed and wet, lascivious. ]
[Itachi stands a black pillar cut out by restless firelight, bare-footed, long clinging fabric of pants and a loose sleeveless top—all the same monochrome color to carve out the severity of his appearance. Hair remains up in a bundle off his neck, messy with humidity, slippery strands falling around the fine bones of his face. He's waiting; not watching, a preternatural awareness capable of monitoring his surroundings without a direct eye. So the approach is anticipated, head angled in Guanshan's direction even before he has stepped into the identity of light.
The bonfire is his own doing—abandoned by partiers long moved on, cold piled ash and burnt wood leftover—and it had taken some work in the revival, his hands now black with soot and lips chalky from a burst of katon. Guanshan will taste it in the kiss, charred and inhumanly scalding, palm leaving a gray-shaded print on one shiny jacket sleeve when he reaches for a lean arm. There's no resistance, only a passive melting heat of mouths sealed together for an enduring moment. And then the sharp tug of his other hand in Guanshan's short red hair to yank his head back and meet their eyes, red on gold.]
[ his mouth is tender and rouged when Itachi breaks them apart, slacked to breathe in the new taste and take it down to his lungs. he knows the hit of more kinds of smoke better than most men, the flavor and effects of each drug he's taken — but he doesn't know this one, can only place it on the tastebuds as something closer to burning logs or a charcoal grill, the ozone of a lightning strike. nothing chemical yet still, somehow, perfectly clean. ]
[ the show of shiny teeth has a very cat got the canary sort of smugness to it that narrows his eyes charmingly, amusement dancing with the reflection of flame. ]
You looked lonely, [ is all he says in his own defense — for once, not making a bid to press for something deeper. there are times he'll fight Itachi for every last drop of affection he can squeeze out of him, but now isn't that time. now... well, there's a hesitance about the other man that clues him in that he needs to hand over control. ]
[ Itachi could change his mind at any moment, and would, Guanshan knows, upon a whim. best not to give him one, instead simply standing there and watching him with expectant patience. ]
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It is not a sentiment men like me would take lightly.
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but ok
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I'm busy tonight, but I will find you later for this.
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i mean it but i cant explainn right now
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thanks
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ask me my thoughts on trust
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I see.
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[But it does make him reconsider some of the more serious things they've discussed, in light of that.]
Do you often message people impulsively while you drink?
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i wont be drunk when we do it !
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Enjoy your night, Guanshan.
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but FINE if it makes U feel better
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There's no reply.]
3 DAYS LATER;
[ a full day of recovery and he texts in the evening, incidentally on the cusp of the sun going down. ]
i want my demonstration
[ hi baby. ]
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Have you thought about the fact that I could hurt you, and possibly kill you? That is what these eyes are for. Are you going to explain why you would still trust me not to?
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weve already talked about me gettin hurt n if u kill me that just means i made a miscalculation
trust is a choice
i choose to give it
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[ sneakers carry him across every terrain between his apartment and that beach, eating up cement and asphalt and shifty, soft sands in his wide gait. moonlight has turned the beach silver and black and pretty, the only warmth found radiating out from the fire like its own little sun, Itachi a dark heavenly body hovering in its orbit. he'd be difficult to spot in pallor, but his isolation and perfect posture announce him as an outsider on a backdrop of biodegradable alcohol containers strewn across the shore like popped confetti. funny, if Guanshan's sense of humor was anything less than mischievous bordering on sadistic. ]
[ even in the night, Guanshan's colors stay saturated — blustery sunburn darkening his freckles, red hair, a windbreaking jacket with reflective cuts, modernistic and sharp on orange, skull-motif'd. sharp-shinned beneath a familiar (clean, now) pair of loose black shorts. red cheeks make the mottled purpling under his eyes that much sharper. to little sleep, too many punches? has he rotted inside so far that his blood's gone mauve? ]
[ selfish is as selfish does, and Guanshan goes to greet him with a kiss — sharp-toothed and wet, lascivious. ]
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The bonfire is his own doing—abandoned by partiers long moved on, cold piled ash and burnt wood leftover—and it had taken some work in the revival, his hands now black with soot and lips chalky from a burst of katon. Guanshan will taste it in the kiss, charred and inhumanly scalding, palm leaving a gray-shaded print on one shiny jacket sleeve when he reaches for a lean arm. There's no resistance, only a passive melting heat of mouths sealed together for an enduring moment. And then the sharp tug of his other hand in Guanshan's short red hair to yank his head back and meet their eyes, red on gold.]
Is this how you intend to greet me from now on?
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[ the show of shiny teeth has a very cat got the canary sort of smugness to it that narrows his eyes charmingly, amusement dancing with the reflection of flame. ]
You looked lonely, [ is all he says in his own defense — for once, not making a bid to press for something deeper. there are times he'll fight Itachi for every last drop of affection he can squeeze out of him, but now isn't that time. now... well, there's a hesitance about the other man that clues him in that he needs to hand over control. ]
[ Itachi could change his mind at any moment, and would, Guanshan knows, upon a whim. best not to give him one, instead simply standing there and watching him with expectant patience. ]
cw body horror, drowning
2/2 oops
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cw blood/weapon play
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itachi running away, the life and story