[ The sheer scope of his selfishness that manifests in his disappointment in how the conversation has gone isn't lost on Sasuke. How petty, he chides himself when he rereads, seeing how what he intended as a simple check-in with his older brother had morphed into a much more serious reveal he knows he must be struggling with. ]
Understood. I'll report back in later.
[ The colder severity with which he replies serves as his apology, wanting to communicate to him that he isn't treating this with less gravity than it deserves. But still... ] You don't need to be there when it happens. It's not your duty.
[Itachi finds himself inspecting the watch for the better part of that wait between messages, anticipating an end there. So he's somewhat surprised by the rest.]
I understand. But if it will happen, I will see it.
[This... such an iron certainty. He's witnessed enough sights in his life, after all, that no matter how painful this one becomes, he can bear it. The alternative is worse.]
[ Unbidden, the image of his brother with unseeing eyes pointed upward, both of their faces streaked with blood and bodies burnt and scarred from battle, comes to him. With the return of one ghost comes a resurgence of others. ]
But you would avoid me otherwise.
[ He doesn't know what possesses him to write the text or to send it, an immediate sense of regret overwhelming him when he stares down at it. The follow-up is faster this time. ]
[If it was only that initial message, Itachi would be forced to respond. They're words intended to get a reaction. He cannot argue he hasn't kept deliberate distance between them since his arrival—what had Sasuke expected? His ability to relax around his younger brother in light of everything Sasuke has learned about him, all of those ugly truths bared to daylight...
It's impossible. How does he respond now? Does he acknowledge Sasuke's scathing comment, or pass over it with Sasuke's dismissive permission? So much hidden meaning to address. Itachi's instinct of avoidance wins out.]
[ Just like that, a conversation about a beautiful night turns into Sasuke's agreement to allow his brother to watch him die, getting a simple "thank you" from a man that's likely just as much at a loss for words as he is. He feels tired. He blames it on his physical condition instead of his mental one.
There's nothing else to say in spite of him wishing there were, staring down at those two words for far too long before he puts that watch aside. Their talks are over for tonight. ]
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Understood. I'll report back in later.
[ The colder severity with which he replies serves as his apology, wanting to communicate to him that he isn't treating this with less gravity than it deserves. But still... ] You don't need to be there when it happens. It's not your duty.
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Would you prefer if I wasn't?
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[ Which isn't enough of a response or explanation, but he hesitates far too long on sending a follow-up. ]
It will be an impossible sight for you to forget.
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I understand. But if it will happen, I will see it.
[This... such an iron certainty. He's witnessed enough sights in his life, after all, that no matter how painful this one becomes, he can bear it. The alternative is worse.]
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But you would avoid me otherwise.
[ He doesn't know what possesses him to write the text or to send it, an immediate sense of regret overwhelming him when he stares down at it. The follow-up is faster this time. ]
I understand. Disregard. I'll keep you informed.
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It's impossible. How does he respond now? Does he acknowledge Sasuke's scathing comment, or pass over it with Sasuke's dismissive permission? So much hidden meaning to address. Itachi's instinct of avoidance wins out.]
Thank you.
[And that's it.]
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There's nothing else to say in spite of him wishing there were, staring down at those two words for far too long before he puts that watch aside. Their talks are over for tonight. ]