[Uchiha Obito. There is a lot of information to process, specifically as it concerns the man who he once believed was Madara—the man who helped him eradicate the Uchiha clan, who gave him the sharingan. It isn't a pleasant realization. He dislikes the idea that he was so far in the dark, and even the contingency plan he did have to shield Sasuke from the truth had failed.
But those thoughts are all secondary to the rest of what Sasuke says. His eyes read over those lines several times before he attempts to respond. His chest aches for how it must have felt when his younger brother had all of this ripped to the surface, without him there to speak to it.
It wasn't supposed to happen that way, but neither was he supposed to wake up here, alive, seemingly given a second chance for a relationship with his brother. He is still so undeserving of it.]
The facts are correct. And yes, those were my goals. I wanted you to live, and I wanted you to kill me for my acts, but I also did not consider what this would do to you. Or I willfully ignored it. I cannot pretend I understand why you've forgiven this.
Nor do I think I ever truly knew you, Sasuke. I sacrificed our relationship as soon as I made my decision. It was easier to pretend otherwise. You were my brother; I saw myself in you. I still do, but there is more that is stranger to me than familiar now.
I wanted your protection as much as your survival. I hoped that you would return to Konoha and live out the remainder of your life peacefully if only the truth was not discovered. I'm sorry.
That's why, if such peace and happiness is also obtainable for you here, I would want you to pursue it.
[All of this emotional vulnerability is a culmination of Jonas' most recent words to him—but also Sasuke's, so tirelessly earnest and blunt over the last few months.]
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Already after the first few lines he braces himself for pain and discomfort but he underestimates his own emotions and again has to turn away, albeit even more briefly than before. Should he judge himself for these feelings? He thought himself above them, considered them part of a closed chapter without resolution. He made peace with that, and now it's being unmade. ]
Peace and happiness back in our world with our relationship destroyed never felt like a tangible reality for me. It feels the same way here.
I will struggle to focus on anything until I feel that things are settled between us. That's what's more important to me.
And to whom should we affix blame for your actions? How far back does it go? If you're responsible for what you've done then I'm responsible for what I've done.
If you have any fears or worries about things then I can lay those to rest, but if you want to hear about things which aren't concerning you it's different. What interests you?
I was unconscious when it occurred. I suspected it might not have been shown to you as a result.
He challenged all of the nations himself, banking on cooperation from me and from Kabuto to bolster his forces. Madara, in his true form, would also be an ally.
... I should have recognized the threat in that man sooner.
Based on what you've told me, he wasn't successful.
[Which doesn't mean he - and the rest of them - did not cause great strife and destruction, perhaps even the intended war. His thoughts turn black and ruminative.
Worse is that truth nestled in, almost hidden: cooperation from me.]
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But those thoughts are all secondary to the rest of what Sasuke says. His eyes read over those lines several times before he attempts to respond. His chest aches for how it must have felt when his younger brother had all of this ripped to the surface, without him there to speak to it.
It wasn't supposed to happen that way, but neither was he supposed to wake up here, alive, seemingly given a second chance for a relationship with his brother. He is still so undeserving of it.]
The facts are correct. And yes, those were my goals. I wanted you to live, and I wanted you to kill me for my acts, but I also did not consider what this would do to you. Or I willfully ignored it. I cannot pretend I understand why you've forgiven this.
Nor do I think I ever truly knew you, Sasuke. I sacrificed our relationship as soon as I made my decision. It was easier to pretend otherwise. You were my brother; I saw myself in you. I still do, but there is more that is stranger to me than familiar now.
I wanted your protection as much as your survival. I hoped that you would return to Konoha and live out the remainder of your life peacefully if only the truth was not discovered. I'm sorry.
That's why, if such peace and happiness is also obtainable for you here, I would want you to pursue it.
[All of this emotional vulnerability is a culmination of Jonas' most recent words to him—but also Sasuke's, so tirelessly earnest and blunt over the last few months.]
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Already after the first few lines he braces himself for pain and discomfort but he underestimates his own emotions and again has to turn away, albeit even more briefly than before. Should he judge himself for these feelings? He thought himself above them, considered them part of a closed chapter without resolution. He made peace with that, and now it's being unmade. ]
Peace and happiness back in our world with our relationship destroyed never felt like a tangible reality for me. It feels the same way here.
I will struggle to focus on anything until I feel that things are settled between us. That's what's more important to me.
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'Settled between us'. You know everything now, Sasuke. I cannot leave, nor will I succumb to the same fate as before. What else remains?
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[ They're past the point of softening blows. ]
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You've done nothing to me.
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I am culpable.
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2/2 don’t look at me
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Anything you've done is a direct consequence of my own influence over you. I know you've claimed otherwise, but I am still responsible. I changed you.
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There are always other choices we could've made.
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Someday, if you decide to share more of the future, I would listen.
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If you have any fears or worries about things then I can lay those to rest, but if you want to hear about things which aren't concerning you it's different. What interests you?
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I’m certain. There’s nothing in particular. I want to know [everything] more about you.
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You saw the kage summit. Did you then also see Obito's declaration of war?
[ What better place to begin. ]
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No. I didn't. Was this a limited perspective in the dream? I would have remembered something like that.
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He challenged all of the nations himself, banking on cooperation from me and from Kabuto to bolster his forces. Madara, in his true form, would also be an ally.
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Based on what you've told me, he wasn't successful.
[Which doesn't mean he - and the rest of them - did not cause great strife and destruction, perhaps even the intended war. His thoughts turn black and ruminative.
Worse is that truth nestled in, almost hidden: cooperation from me.]
You helped them.