im not expectin it to be pleasant thats the trade off for getting to know someone sounds like its something unavoidable if im gonna be around you, yea ? so prove i can trust u like that
[That's the problem, here — instinct instead of reason — but they've had the discussion before about Guanshan's impulsive tendencies. He's not going to let himself get reeled into something else.
[ a chat window that sits empty for a few days, unused but not forgotten. he promised Itachi a clear head, and for half of the week, Marilla's party scene has its claws in him; he needs time to make mistakes and then breathe in the aftermath, reset some kind of equilibrium that, however fleeting on a pendulum's swing, craves the drinks and the drugs and the whole dissociative bender. ]
[ a full day of recovery and he texts in the evening, incidentally on the cusp of the sun going down. ]
[He'd thought Guanshan might have forgotten, or at least abandoned the cause, so he is somewhat surprised to see the message flash across his screen.]
Have you thought about the fact that I could hurt you, and possibly kill you? That is what these eyes are for. Are you going to explain why you would still trust me not to?
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like
a demonstration ??
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I'd have to do the demonstration on you directly. On the outside, it's difficult to discern anything has changed when you are not the target.
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so ?
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Perhaps I don't need to ask. I'm still surprised. It may not be pleasant to feel controlled, or have your reality altered.
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thats the trade off for getting to know someone
sounds like its something unavoidable if im gonna be around you, yea ? so prove i can trust u like that
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It is not a sentiment men like me would take lightly.
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but ok
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I'm busy tonight, but I will find you later for this.
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i mean it but i cant explainn right now
ok
thanks
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ask me my thoughts on trust
llllater
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I see.
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[But it does make him reconsider some of the more serious things they've discussed, in light of that.]
Do you often message people impulsively while you drink?
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i wont be drunk when we do it !
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Enjoy your night, Guanshan.
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but FINE if it makes U feel better
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There's no reply.]
3 DAYS LATER;
[ a full day of recovery and he texts in the evening, incidentally on the cusp of the sun going down. ]
i want my demonstration
[ hi baby. ]
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Have you thought about the fact that I could hurt you, and possibly kill you? That is what these eyes are for. Are you going to explain why you would still trust me not to?
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weve already talked about me gettin hurt n if u kill me that just means i made a miscalculation
trust is a choice
i choose to give it
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cw body horror, drowning
2/2 oops
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cw blood/weapon play
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itachi running away, the life and story