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[anbu]

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un: "uchiha, itachi" hungryeyes

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[pushpin]

do u
like
pasta ?????

[ flirting with your crush... #nailedit ]

[anbu]

No.

[get wrecked]

... I don't know. It isn't something I've had more than once. Cooking is a hobby of yours, I take it?

[pushpin]

usually theyre too cheesy n fatty but i can make em good

it kinda is again i guess
my old man useda own a restaurant

[anbu]

I would be willing to try yours.

Is that how you learned? He taught you?

[pushpin]

sure
i always got leftovers anyway so if u forget to eat again
just come over

right
before he got locked up

[anbu]

Forgetting to eat isn't a regular occurrence. I'm just not often hungry.

Were you close with your father?

[pushpin]

are u a shit cook

i was young
u know how young boys feel about their fathers

[ or their older brothers. ]

[anbu]

Would that make a difference?

I’m not certain I do. My own relationship was... atypical. [Or so he’s gauged after exposure to normie teenagers.] However, I recognize the sentiment. It must have disappointed you when he was imprisoned.

[pushpin]

acourse
good food makes u excited to eat it
sharin a meal is important w/ the people u care about
thats why most dates got meals involved
n cuz i know ur so damn PRACTICAL it hurts, its important for bein healthy too

most things about u is " atypical "
its always about family, right ?
everything broken or missing in a person
yea, disappointed is 1 a the things i felt

[anbu]

I can see you value food a lot.

[He doesn't know what else to say. Feeling excited to eat a meal, the warmth of companionship over a dinner table... Caring for health. They aren't experiences he's cared to seek in years—not, at least, while he was still alive.]

Perhaps because family is the beginning. They are part of your blood, so they will always be connected to you.

What other things did you feel?

[pushpin]

it aint just the food, its that its glue
but if u dont get it, u dont get it
my offer stands

right
n u grow to their shape before anyone elses

if u ask me a difficult question like that i get to ask u one back, u know
its only fair

[anbu]

...

Fine. Only one.

1/3

[pushpin]

yea yea i know how tit for tat works

i dunno i was like fuckin 5 i felt a lot of things
confused, scared, pissed
betrayed
abandoned
burdened
its kinda this all-encompassing thing that led to a buncha other things
cuz he went away n it was just me n my ma n all the damages we wound up in debt real bad
i always worked a buncha part time jobs but the money wasnt as good as, ya know, runnin the streets w/ other guys who had shit lives too
people i had somethin in common w/ for a fucking change, u kno ?
cue the inevitable spiral, i guess
bein desperate for money made me so easy to use n it was fucking awful but still better than the alternative
but that didnt mean i wasnt angry about it

about everything

i lied, 2/2

[pushpin]

[ ... ]

damn, sorry to..... just fuckin gush at u
shits just been on my mind lately

[anbu]

[Five years old. That such a singular event eventually built into greater suffering is no new, novel realization—it holds more familiar weight than he’s comfortable looking in the eye. Someone else might make the human connection between their separate experiences; instead, Itachi imagines himself from the perspective of an angry, abandoned child left to the unlucky system of another place. It isn’t something that is relatable to him on a surface level, but the premise of lost control and lost childhood is a blunt association. Painful, somewhere. The emotion underlaid in those words is scorching, and all he has done is read them across an impersonal screen. He cannot fathom feeling it through the boy himself.]

There is no need to apologize. I was the one who asked.

What you felt is understandable considering the situation you were placed in, and put at the mercy of someone else’s decisions while so young. You did what you had to survive. The same would be true of anyone.

[A logical, straightforward, sanitized reply. Perhaps Stiles would say it better—or even Sasuke. He’s not easily capable of the same articulate empathy.]

Thank you for answering truthfully.

[pushpin]

[ there are a few words that will always land well on Guanshan; survival is at the top of the list. he might be the boy who's holding too much hope in his chest, but be damned if he lets it go out even when he wants to the most. ]

is it still, then ?
justifiable

those things i did then are the same things i do now
the same things that get me anonymous 9mm gifts
should i have grown outta this by now
filed off the fangs n became useful to society ?

[ Itachi won't withhold his opinion. ]

[anbu]

[Justifiable, then. Now? It isn't a question he has the standing to answer.]

It's possible that you will never be able to change. Regardless of your own will, your experiences have shaped you irrevocably. There is always a point in our lives where we are unable to turn back.

... I'd like to ask another question, but that would not be fair to our agreement.

[pushpin]

ill put it on ur tab

[anbu]

I think indebting myself with you is probably unwise.

[pushpin]

ill ask u one now then
why dont u underestimate me
is it that u think im a threat or that i couldnt be one at all

[anbu]

I prefer not to underestimate anyone. I wouldn’t say you are a threat in the traditional sense, no.

The extent of your personality is still unknown to me. And my behavior has the potential to be somewhat impulsive around you. Additionally, Synchrony has been...

[Overwhelming.]

Different than I am used to.

[pushpin]

hey i like impulsive

[ yeah that's the part he zeroed in on. ]

[anbu]

[UGH]

I don’t.

[pushpin]

might learn to

i get it now though
u accept im a fixed point
thanks
its more respect than most people give me

[anbu]

Impulsivity often leads to mistakes.

People are more comfortable making assumptions about the world, and those within it. It can be easier that way. We dislike what is different from us or not well understood.

You're welcome.