You do seem to gravitate toward trouble. That said, this is the safest dimension I've personally visited so far. Which isn't to say everyone's experience will be identical.
yea but ur like..... strong maybe im thinking i need the gun to protect me from u, huh ?
my city was like the underground a lot, at least the parts of it i belonged to so i guess thats why
[ comfortable. homesick. ]
the station was fine, some weird alien monsters came through once but it wasnt bad some bad things happened but thats just bein around other people lunatia was pretty much the same as sumarlok
You shouldn't worry about me. Anything I chose to do to you would be beyond your control, so attempting to prepare or defend yourself against me is impractical.
[That's not... reassuring, psycho.]
Have you considered that part of the problem is your own behavior? The Underground is naturally more dangerous. Or do you enjoy that risk?
[ ...shit he didn't actually mean to tell him. oh well. ]
then ill be impractical & try to blow ur brains out anyway, if it comes to that dont test my patience
[ he's honest, but he doesn't have to forfeit the truth — that those words are more titillating than intimidating. ]
sure its probly true lol i dont think i could live a normal life if i tried
[ even if some part of him wants it, left to starve and yet always feeding on crumbs of intimacy and domesticity anyway. he can be aware all he wants; control is beyond him. ]
If your patience feels tested, it isn't because I was doing it intentionally.
[Some subtle, tongue-in-cheek snark there.]
Understanding yourself is not an easy feat to accomplish. Many go their entire lives not knowing who they truly are, at least not until they're faced with the moment of their own death. How you act on that knowledge is more important.
does knowin people arent tryna be annoying make them less annoying to u
pretend to not know what, exactly ? that id rather live in a way that makes my heart beat instead of lettin it collect dust ? ill take " dangerous " over boring & scared over cold
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[ "attention"? yeah, just sneak that one in there, why don't you. it's not as simple as that — he'll find what he isn't looking for, too. guilt among them. making a point of it is tiring, so he doesn't. ]
just the partsa my city that i was in plenty of it was like sumarlok, tall buildings that glitter n everyone walking around like worker bees, carving the same path out over n over with their feet cuz they could afford to poor people live in pockets where everything isnt so shiny
Aefenglom. They were called Bonds, a spiritual contract entered willingly between two individuals that allowed you to experience the other's emotional state. It was more... permanent and exclusive than Synchrony. The world itself was large, but far less populous and technologically developed next to Sumarlok.
japan n china are on the same eastern continent, asia i cant exactly give u a in depth history lesson but chinas like japans mean big brother older & gave japan 1 a their writin systems neither like america
right.... u kinda freaked out in the flashpoint i know some ppl from worlds like that so i guess it aint that unusual
u actually had one ? a " bond " ?
[ — oh. now it makes sense. ]
doesnt sound that appealing on its own what was the benefit
["Mean big brother"... what in the world. What if he wants an in depth history lesson?]
I see. My culture has been previously compared to Japan, which is the reason I asked. I'm not familiar with most of the territory of your Earth, but it appears to be a common world.
I was just uncomfortable with it. [Offended by "freaked out"......] I've since become accustomed.
For half of the population, it prevented them from turning permanently feral. Similar to how you behaved at Camp Whitegrave. For the other half, it meant they did not die due to an implosion of magical energy. The benefit was equilibrium. Once you committed to a ceremony, you were formally bound to that person's soul. ... I had two.
damn that was blunt i mean hey, i dont judge...... does stiles know ? hahahaha
[ IS HE KIDDING? hard to say. ]
to be honest there aint a damn difference except that maybe.....
[ hold on, he has to think about it. ]
u know how...... its better & more intense if its with somebody.... u know real well ? or u really like ? n how u feel what theyre feelin that parts all new threw me for a damn loop, thats for sure
[It takes a lagging moment to understand the implication, at which point—unwilling to pursue that direction in conversation with every last fiber of his being—he doesn't respond at all.
Yes, I noticed your surprise the first time. It seemed an unfamiliar experience to you.
It's true that it is more intense depending on the relationship between the individuals Synching. The more willing you are, the more efficient at generating Manna it becomes.
tch...... remember how patient i am w/ u being nosy in the future its not cuz i wanna talk about it but yea, he is we met way back on the space station
[ it's not evasion this time; it's just discomfort. he doesn't talk about Rokurou, not with the way they can only love each other in the dark, in secret. ]
[ yet in spite of that, he wants to know Itachi — and knowing means being known, the hardest part of all. ]
[ somehow, after all of these years, all he knows to do when it meets a blockade is barrel on through it without thinking of the consequence. ]
ive been in love w/ him for a long time & hes always found me
[He hadn't expected honesty. Or perhaps, more accurately, he hadn't expected the honesty to be this. Even the concept of "love" is such an abstract shape in his mind, messily defined by his relationship with his younger brother. Consciously choosing it…
What a vulnerable thing to admit.]
Even though you're unlikely to remain together permanently? We have little control over these places. Or are you convinced your circumstances are unique?
[If his questions have a personal component behind them, he's prepared to accept that.]
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What were the other worlds you've seen like?
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maybe im thinking i need the gun to protect me from u, huh ?
my city was like the underground a lot, at least the parts of it i belonged to
so i guess thats why
[ comfortable. homesick. ]
the station was fine, some weird alien monsters came through once but it wasnt bad
some bad things happened but thats just bein around other people
lunatia was pretty much the same as sumarlok
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You shouldn't worry about me. Anything I chose to do to you would be beyond your control, so attempting to prepare or defend yourself against me is impractical.
[That's not... reassuring, psycho.]
Have you considered that part of the problem is your own behavior? The Underground is naturally more dangerous. Or do you enjoy that risk?
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then ill be impractical & try to blow ur brains out anyway, if it comes to that
dont test my patience
[ he's honest, but he doesn't have to forfeit the truth — that those words are more titillating than intimidating. ]
sure
its probly true lol
i dont think i could live a normal life if i tried
[ even if some part of him wants it, left to starve and yet always feeding on crumbs of intimacy and domesticity anyway. he can be aware all he wants; control is beyond him. ]
thats who i am so i just deal w/ it
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[Some subtle, tongue-in-cheek snark there.]
Understanding yourself is not an easy feat to accomplish. Many go their entire lives not knowing who they truly are, at least not until they're faced with the moment of their own death. How you act on that knowledge is more important.
Or maybe you'd rather pretend not to know?
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pretend to not know what, exactly ?
that id rather live in a way that makes my heart beat instead of lettin it collect dust ?
ill take " dangerous " over boring & scared over cold
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Then with the gift you now possess, I’m sure you’ll find what you’re looking for. Attention, thrill. Fear.
You said your original world is similar to the Underground?
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" sincere " ?
[ "attention"? yeah, just sneak that one in there, why don't you. it's not as simple as that — he'll find what he isn't looking for, too. guilt among them. making a point of it is tiring, so he doesn't. ]
just the partsa my city that i was in
plenty of it was like sumarlok, tall buildings that glitter n everyone walking around like worker bees, carving the same path out over n over with their feet cuz they could afford to
poor people live in pockets where everything isnt so shiny
its like that most places aint it ?
yours too ?
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My own is very different from many of the places I've already seen, but poverty exists everywhere. You're correct.
What is the name of your home?
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country called china
u said 1 of the 2 was like here too, didnt u ?
or had "" magic touch "" or somethin too ?
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Aefenglom. They were called Bonds, a spiritual contract entered willingly between two individuals that allowed you to experience the other's emotional state. It was more... permanent and exclusive than Synchrony. The world itself was large, but far less populous and technologically developed next to Sumarlok.
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i cant exactly give u a in depth history lesson but chinas like japans mean big brother
older & gave japan 1 a their writin systems
neither like america
right.... u kinda freaked out in the flashpoint
i know some ppl from worlds like that so i guess it aint that unusual
u actually had one ? a " bond " ?
[ — oh. now it makes sense. ]
doesnt sound that appealing on its own
what was the benefit
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I see. My culture has been previously compared to Japan, which is the reason I asked. I'm not familiar with most of the territory of your Earth, but it appears to be a common world.
I was just uncomfortable with it. [Offended by "freaked out"......] I've since become accustomed.
For half of the population, it prevented them from turning permanently feral. Similar to how you behaved at Camp Whitegrave. For the other half, it meant they did not die due to an implosion of magical energy. The benefit was equilibrium. Once you committed to a ceremony, you were formally bound to that person's soul. ... I had two.
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yea
sometimes people got real japanese or japanese-soundin names but aint actually from japan
happens a lot too
universe is a great big place
thats good
i can only imagine how much hoofin it u did before that
so u got soul married......... twice ?? itachi, u lil slut lol
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[What did he do to deserve this.]
What is different about Synchrony compared to the “magic touching” of that other place you visited?
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i mean hey, i dont judge...... does stiles know ? hahahaha
[ IS HE KIDDING? hard to say. ]
to be honest there aint a damn difference
except that maybe.....
[ hold on, he has to think about it. ]
u know how...... its better & more intense if its with somebody.... u know real well ? or u really like ?
n how u feel what theyre feelin
that parts all new
threw me for a damn loop, thats for sure
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Never happened.]
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It's true that it is more intense depending on the relationship between the individuals Synching. The more willing you are, the more efficient at generating Manna it becomes.
Do you enjoy it?
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it aint all one thing or the other
never is
i like it sometimes, w/ some people.... important people
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Is Rokurou Rangetsu one of those people?
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its not cuz i wanna talk about it
but yea, he is
we met way back on the space station
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[Not that it's going to stop him from further nosy questions.]
You've been together long, then? Across multiple dimensions?
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i guess
yea
[ it's not evasion this time; it's just discomfort. he doesn't talk about Rokurou, not with the way they can only love each other in the dark, in secret. ]
[ yet in spite of that, he wants to know Itachi — and knowing means being known, the hardest part of all. ]
[ somehow, after all of these years, all he knows to do when it meets a blockade is barrel on through it without thinking of the consequence. ]
ive been in love w/ him for a long time
& hes always found me
its like that
[ honest to a fault. ]
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What a vulnerable thing to admit.]
Even though you're unlikely to remain together permanently? We have little control over these places. Or are you convinced your circumstances are unique?
[If his questions have a personal component behind them, he's prepared to accept that.]
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i just know loving someone dont have anything to do w/ losing them
worrying about losing someone is u loving urself too much, not them
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